As we all know life moves on even while we are in sad times and that is especially true in our house. With our crazy kids we don't get much time for personal reflection and just have to start running to catch up to the slowest kid. We have been pretty busy lately with chess, school, webelows, gymnastics, church and a variety of other things and I have to tell you I need a break!!!!!! Time is moving so fast that I feel like my kids are growing faster than I can notice.
Speaking of kids growing, Princess had a birthday this sunday and turned 6 years old. That is right, our little girl now needs two hands to count her age. I can't believe how fast the past 3 years have been with her and seeing how much she has changed in that time. It is amazing just seeing the girl that she is becoming.
She had a Strawberry Shortcake tea party and had several friends from church over to help her start her 6th year out right. Her favorite thing was the cake pops that I made for the party and she even sat and watched as I decorated all 30 of them. If I forgot to put sprinkles on one she would quickly remind me so that I could correct the error. She woke up this morning and Thanked me again for the wonderful party she had and asked when her next birthday would be. I think I need to maybe set up a little sleep over for her before then because she was not happy when I told her 12 months!
I hope that in this new year I will be able to slow down just enough that I can watch my kids growing. That I will feel that I have noticed every milestone big and small as they grow into the wonderful kids that they are.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
So....... my grandma died the week before Christmas and her birthday. I was there for her last breath and got to say goodbye to her one last time. This hasn't made it any easier and I know that I will see her again one day and that she is with those who have passed before but again.... that does very little for the hole that was left in my heart. I was very close to my grandma and went to her for everything from when I was a kid and needed to vent about my mom to being a grown woman wanting to learn everything about her grandma before it was too late. She was always there waiting with a smile and a hug for when her grandkids would come and visit. She kept me strong through infertility, cysts and adoptions and she taught me that women could be just as strong as men. She showed through example what faith and compassion really look like and she helped teach me about family history and why it was so important. It has been two weeks but when I was sick this past weekend I reached for my phone to call her and let her know I would not be by for a visit. That was a little rough. I also got a christmas present from her that she had knitted earlier in the year for me. A beautiful scarf from the yarn that I had picked up for her this summer. I am much better than I was two weeks ago and even a week ago but I am still trying to find balance again. She was the support in so much of my life and I can tell she is gone for now.