Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Willie Marie Thomas

So....... my grandma died the week before Christmas and her birthday. I was there for her last breath and got to say goodbye to her one last time. This hasn't made it any easier and I know that I will see her again one day and that she is with those who have passed before but again.... that does very little for the hole that was left in my heart. I was very close to my grandma and went to her for everything from when I was a kid and needed to vent about my mom to being a grown woman wanting to learn everything about her grandma before it was too late. She was always there waiting with a smile and a hug for when her grandkids would come and visit. She kept me strong through infertility, cysts and adoptions and she taught me that women could be just as strong as men. She showed through example what faith and compassion really look like and she helped teach me about family history and why it was so important. It has been two weeks but when I was sick this past weekend I reached for my phone to call her and let her know I would not be by for a visit. That was a little rough. I also got a christmas present from her that she had knitted earlier in the year for me. A beautiful scarf from the yarn that I had picked up for her this summer. I am much better than I was two weeks ago and even a week ago but I am still trying to find balance again. She was the support in so much of my life and I can tell she is gone for now.