Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Count your many blessings of 2009

I know I have not posted anything about christmas yet but that is because I keep leaving my camera in the van that mike takes to work. I promise I will give the scoop of our first 5 member Taggard Christmas when I get back from my time off. Until then I am going to do what most people do this time of year and ponder over 2009 and count my blessings one by one.

Overall the year has been wonderful! I am not being sarcastic either, it really has. Here is a countdown of the 2009 blessings.

1. This is the biggest blessing our family could ever have received and that is the addition of our two littlest Taggards. We met them in april and have had nothing but joy since that day. It is hard to remember that we have not always had them in our lives since we all bonded so quickly and perfectly together. It is hard to see any hardships that have happened this year because of this huge blessing. (now I am crying, great)

2. $$$$$- I received a very large raise this year and it was needed in the biggest way. I have a great boss that works his hardest to make sure that his employees are taken care of and paid what they should be. For a state job this is wonderful.

3. Discovered mike is diabetic.... I know, but it is a blessing in disguise. I would much rather us find out when he is still young and not unhealthy than to find out when he has passed the point of no return on his health. All it took was a horrible couple of days in the ICU and the fear of his wife put in him to get him to start taking things seriously.

4. New Calling at church- I was called to be the Young Womens President and it has been a huge blessing to me. I was pushed out of my comfort zone and have been able to see myself grow both spiritually and emotionally. I have also been able to get to know other women in the church instead of getting to hide with the kids in primary. I have also learned that the girls in the program no matter what is going on stay in my heart and prayers. This is kind of big for me since I am not a very outwardly emotional person....I have even been able to start hugging the girls....agian, I have issues with touching. ( I really am a weird girl)

5. Family - We love the fact that most of our close family live within a few hours drive of us. It has been great being able to visit with our closest friends the Andrus Family. Eddie has been a huge factor in our lives for well over a decade and his wonderful wife and son are right up there with him. I know that they will not stay put very long but we hope to see them as much as possible while they are in arkansas. My parents and family in jacksonville have been so helpful to our family. They are always there when we need support or even a babysitter and that means so much to someone that has problems asking for help. Mikes parents and siblings are the same way. His parents travel up here to help us out whenever we ask and I am blessed because of that. There was one bad thing that happened. Justen and Amber moved to Fayettville.....Yeah, I am a little bitter. I loved that they were only an hour away and now they live 3 hours away....I am used to that with ed but not Justen. Really, they ought to be ashamed of themselves for not thinking of how I would feel about the move. It is all about me right?

6. Friends- We have really added to our list of friends in 2009. We are lucky to be in a ward at church that has lots of people around our age and it has been great getting to hang out with and chat with everyone. Mike and I have a habit of being homebodies and antisocial (as every parent ends up being) and it is nice to have people to talk to. Also, our friend Thomas moved back home to cabot and it is nice to have an old friend close by.

7. $$$$- again. yup it is kinda of an important part of our lives. Mike and I have been college students and poor for 8 of the 9.5 years of our marriage. (we really like to torture ourselves) and in january we were able to start up a savings account and it has been odd adjusting to two full incomes and being able to actually save money or do things like go to a movie or heck even buy groceries without wondering if the money is there to cover it. Ah....it is nice having no one in school.

8. Which brings me to......Mike made the decision to go back to school in the fall of 2010. I am excited that he is striving to acheive his goals and is even excited about starting. I am proud of him and know he will rock it.

9. We closed our home for foster care. This is another of those blessings that are hidden type things. We are sad that we will no longer be able to care for Gods children while the families work to put thier lives back in order but we know that we have done what the Lord wanted of us and now it is time to focus on completing our family and moving on. We cared for 11 children over 3 years and I miss them and hope that they are still the wonderful children they were when they left our home.

10. My Husband. Anyone that knows michael knows that every year he is in my life is a blessing. If not for him I would, Starve and die, be a hermit, let my heart turn to coal and my kids would not be nearly the wonderful kids they are. He truely is the perfect husband for me. I hope he knows that I love him and can not imagine my life without his witty sarcasm.

So these are some of my 2009 blessings. I hope they have not bored or offended anyone. This is just something I need to do to remind myself that with every bump the Lord does send blessings to us.

Des

Monday, December 14, 2009

Time just keeps flying by......

or so it would seem since I did not realize that my last post was on 12/2/09. It has been almost two whole weeks since I have updated the few people that read my blog on what is going on in the tame but interesting life of the Taggard Clan. So what have we been up to? See, even I have not one clue.
It really has been a busy couple of weeks. All of the court papers have been turned in for the whole custody thing and now we are just waiting for the judge to make a ruling on which family our son belongs with and then we can start on our adoption. It has really not been that bad. We are still going about as if nothing has happened and enjoying our new little family. It will all work out in the long run and hey Beau's delivery was not easy so why should I have thought that this "delivery" would be.
We got all of the Christmas decorations up and presents wrapped and under the tree and then starting making a ton of homemade treats. These treats have been really yummy and we are going to hand them out tonight for family home evening to friends and family. I made my traditional toffee, rocky road candy, chocolate covered pretzles, peppermint bark, pecan fudge and these thin mint tasting cookies. I was going to make peanut butter balls to but I have just candied my self out. I think I am going to die if I make anymore of the stuff. well, until next year anyways.
We are all getting excited about the different trips to visit family and friends over the christmas holidays and can't wait to see what we have all got wrapped under our tree. Princess still thinks that santa is living in one of her Tinkerbell wrapped presents so we might just have to get her a little santa wrapped under the tree.
The only thing I can think of that I have done the past cople of weeks was catch the biggest, baddest and ugliest cold ever. This sucker has been with me about a week and a half and has made my life a little less than fun. It finally reached a pinnacle late sunday night/early sunday when I was unable to really talk, breath or even walk a straight line. I would only curse this cold on those that cut me off in traffic everyday. Really, it has not been fun. I am at work today and have already almost gone through my jumbo box of tissues and a bag of cough drops. oh, and I smell like Vicks Vapo Rub.....I know sexy huh. Anyways, Heres hoping that the rest of my christmas season is healthy and keeps being wonderfully great!!!!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Christmas, christmas time is here, time for joy.....

yes, my oldest son know all the words to the chipmonk christmas song. He sings it wonderfully too. Well, we got the tree up and the presents wrapped with care (except the ones Beau wrapped) and decorations set up around the house. I love this time of year and enjoy watching my kids get excited about the whole thing. We make a point of making sure that equal time is spent on both the secular and sacred parts of this holiday and the kids enjoy listening to all the stories. I think that is going to be Beau's last year "believing" in santa. It is sad but he is a really smart boy and I think he will start putting it together. But in my house as long as you say there is a santa he will leave you a present under the tree. However, there are two other little ones that still have several years ahead of them on the santa train. Link is only 2 so he doesn't care as long as the paper tears and the box fits over his big head. Princess is 3 almost 4 and she is all about it. In fact this morning she told me that santa is living in one of the presents under the tree waiting to give her some toys. She is our little imagination kid. I wish santa lived in my house I would start wishing up some crazy things like, a clean house or a new car or heck, a 7 carot diamond I could sell for millions. Oh well, There really is nothing like the christmas season seen through the eyes of children. I love it.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Ponderings from a mother of 3

Why is it that my 8 year old son's pants are never zipped.....and he doesn't care?

Why is a mother not built with a back up battery supply to get her through a day of work after being up all night with a crying child.

As I listen to my kids I stop and wonder how many more years I will have to listen to the age old argument of who is touching who and who was playing with what first.

What magical power do kids have that no matter how upset you are once they kiss you and hug you it seems to melt away. Even if you know you should still be upset. (I think mike was a jedi and passed it on)

How can one nugget of poo make an entire house stink?

Why do I spend 20 minutes each morning on my daughters hair for her to immidiatly do a flip and mess it all up before we even walk out the door?

When my 2 year old smiles in his sleep what is he dreaming of?

Will my daughter always think her full name is princess Lili?

Why can my 8 year old remember every diolog from his favorite cartoon but not be able to recall me asking a bazillon times to put his cup in the sink?

I will tell you the answer to all of these questions.......I will never know. That is the answer. All I do know is that I have three of the worlds greatest kids and they nevre fail to make me laugh, smile or feel completly loved. I love being a mother.

Monday, November 9, 2009

My road just got bumpier

The Saga still continues to the point that our adoption hearing and sealing have been canceled. The second round of the hearing (Old Foster parents fighting to adopt) went long and none of the lawyers were able to do closing statements and so now they must be submitted in writing and we should get a ruling around january or february of 2010. This was heartbreaking to me since our courtdate for finalization was 11.20.09 just two short week away until we could legally calim our children as our own. Now I do not know when that will happen. I know that it will work out in the end but it is sometimes hard to accept bumps in the road and this bump has been getting on my nerves for seven months. However, my oldest son's delevery was 36 hours and rough so why should I have expected any of my other "official" entrance into our family to be any easier. I am still coping with this latest bit of news and I am trying to see the possitive side to it but I think for now I will allow myself to feel bad and pout for a few days, then I will smile and accept things as they are. Please keep us in your prayers and I will keep you updated.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

National Adoption Month

In celebration of National Adoption Month and finally being placed with two beautiful children after 7 years of trying to add to our family (both naturally and through adoption) I am going to repost an old post about how and why we got into adoption.

Monday, October 29, 2007

The story of why we are adoptiv and foster parents
By request I am going to tell you all a little story as to why we are foster parents.
Beau's Family Picture:
I have Poly Cystic Ovarian syndrom better known as PCOS. What does this do? Well, it makes you gain weight, lose hair and lots of other stuff but most of all it makes it really hard to have kids. But you had one right? Yes, Mike and I got pregnant very quickly after we got married and the doctor thought that the PCOS would reverse itself like it sometimes does with Women that manage to get Pregnant. It did not work. Mike and I tried and we were not getting any luck in having a baby. This was making me very depressed and Beau was starting to realize that being an only child was not his bag of candy. He even came up with an imaginary brother and when he killed a bug one day he freaked out saying that he killed his brother and.....well......anyone familar with my son knows this story and has shed a few tears for his imaginary brother. It was an issue for almost a year he would just start talking about it and crying. It was heartbreaking and it made me feel worse. I was the one that was broken and unable to give him a real sibling, so in my mind I was the one breaking his heart.
We will now skip to the end of the year in mourning for the dead imaginary brother and move into Beau's Three year old Preschool year. I had just gotten a job and we moved into a house out of our apartment. Mike and I had talked a little about adopting but had decided that while he was in school it would not be an option so we put it off. We never talked about this with Beau or even mentioned it around him. Well, he came home from school one day and had a family picture drawn and it was matted on construction paper and looked really nice. I was looking at it and noticed that there were lots of people in it and so I asked him who they were. He said that those were his brothers and sisters. Oh, no. Here we go again with the dead brother. Beau, I said, Remember that you don't have any brothers and sisters? Yes I do mother. No Beau you don't. Mommy can not have anymore children. Then Beau said, I know but these kids are at their homes waiting for us to get them and bring them home. I was taken back. I said what do you mean, Beau. He then told me that these were his brothers and sisters that were not happy and were waiting in there homes to come to ours. I was taken back by this. How could a three year old that has never been told about adoption or foster care know about this? How would he know that there were children all over that needed a good home? Mike and I knew at that point that the Lord was informing us that we did not need to go at our own pace with adoption and foster care but by his timeline and if we would not listen on our own then he would speak through our child. We have now had 6 children in our home and Beau has never been happier. He is patient and loving and for the first time since he was born I feel like our family is complete. I know that my children are waiting for me and that they will not come from me but will come from someone else but they are still my children. I will always be grateful to my son and to my father in heaven for hitting me in the head and telling me to get the ball rolling.

Posted by Desiree at 8:47 AM

UPDATE: November 3, 2009

We have finally found tow of our missing children. We were blessed this year by getting a call about two beautiful kids that were matched with our family. From the moment we met them we knew that they were ours. Over the course of almost 4 years we have had 11 children plus Beau in our home. I have had my heart broken several times by watching my "kids" come in and out of my life. Each of those children left something behind and helped us grow. They prepared the way for the children that would never have to leave us. For that I am grateful. We still have a kid or two out there waiting but it is all in our Heavenly Father's time.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Happy birthday to 2 of my men.







So when we were matched with Link we did not realize that his birthday was the same as Michaels it is really funny. So now we have two birthdays to celebrate on October 26th. Link turns 2 today (he has already got the "NO" down pat) and Mike turns 30. That last one is a bit hard for me to be OK with. I am still not ok with being 29. I guess you can not stop the clock. We had fun last night celebrating both of the birthdays. Lots of Balloon games for the kids and presents for both of them. We did not do a big birthday since Link is a bit young and mike is a bit old but it was still a lot of fun for our little family. My parents did come over to help us with the festivites and the kids enjoyed getting to show off all of the ninja balloon skills they have. The best part was when Link got his stick horse and started mooing. He still thinks that thing is a cow. I love it. Princess decorated the cupcakes for chase and mike got a cheesecake. I am going to have to start working now to try and figure out a way to do the dual birthday thing. One idea is to do Link's party on a weekend and do a special dinner for mike and then on the actual day let the birthday boys go out on the town and have fun. I don't know. I still have 365 day sto work it out.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Full and Fun Weekend!!!






















I had one of those weekends that you are never get a moment to rest until it is time to go to work on monday. We had the state fair, Presents to make, Costumes to make, church and a birthday party. It was a lot of stuff but to be honest it was a blast. Here is the break down.

Friday: I decided to make my Nieces birthday presents because I had learned som really cute crafts. I made here a crayon tote and some hair bows. This took all night but while I was sewing we had a family movie night and watch Halloween Town II on disney. My niece seemed to really like the presents at her party and I also made some for my three kids for Christmas.

Saturday: STATE FAIR! No Seriously, this is a huge thing in our family. We start talking about the fair in July! I was so excited about the fair that I could not sleep the night before. (How sad is that) After Beaus golf lesson we went to the fair and had so much fun. Princess and Beau got to ride the rides (with dad sometimes) for about 3 hours. The faster the better seemed to be the motto that day. It was fun to watch them get so excited about all the different rides and food. We also went to a tiger show and we all loved it. Princess loved it so much she wanted her daddy to catch her a tiger to bring home. No such luck. We got to see animals, games and lots of other fun things. Plus the food, that is just a given. Now it is over and we have a whole year to wait until the next one.

After fair still sat.: It was our nieces birthday party and we went there after the fair. We really enjoyed getting to see the family, hang out and talk. What I loved seeing most was our niece and princess being so excited about seeing eachother. They really love to play and have fun together. It is so cute!

Sunday: I realized that I had to have Beau's costume completed before the end of the week. If he wanted to be something normal this would note be a problem but no, my son has to be Ike from Mario Bros Brawl. So I get to look online at all the pics and try and figure this out. Really, I could rock a Project Runway challenge if it was about Nintendo Costumes. I make it work. I did finally get the costume done last night 6 hours, and then Beau put it on and I had to make him take it off when he went to bed. That is always the reward. Last year was link from Zelda and he did the same thing. He is so good about making a huge deal about how perfect the costume turned out and that it is so cool. Then he gives me a hug an all the stress from the sewing melts away.

Now the weekend is over and I am getting ready to decorate for Trunk r Treat at church but before then I am claiming tonight as a Mom Night. No sewing, no nothing but relaxing and enjoying the fact that I have nothing to do for a few hours. Maybe, this is my family we are talking about.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Three little pigs

well, just one so far. When I got home yesterday Link threw up and so I took his temp and he had one. Mike and I talked and because the school had sent home a notice that some of the students had confirmed H1N1 viruses we decided to take him in to the doctor the next day. Mike just called and we now have an almost 2 year old pig. He is on meds and we are to keep him away from the other two hopefully not pigs. I called all three schools to let them know, I called the DHS workers and I am now contimplating how long of a weekend I am going to have with mike working the whole time. I am going to stop by the fabric store and pick up some stuff to work on in my isolation and hopefully the other two kids will stay symptom free. Princess is allergic to tamflu so we are really concerned with her coming down with it because how will they treat her. I guess I will huff and puff until this flu is blown down.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Baby Zone!!!!

So, I find myself calling my husband it seems everyday to share the news that another one of our good friends is having a baby and we talk for awhile about how we think that each of these people will be such wonderful parents and that we are excited for them. This has happened four times in the past year, three of which have been in the past two weeks. All of these families have a special place in the Taggard's memories and hearts. All of them have even watched as Mike and I fell in love, got married and started our own family. I want to leave a special message to each of these friends and leave with them all our good wishes, congrats and a firm warning to keep all baby producing water away from me. I will leave the messages in the order that we found out about your newest additions.

Aria and Eddie- I know the Eli has already been born but we continue to marvel at how wonderful you both are as parents to this special child of God. He is beautiful and I only hope that all of our children will grow up together and feeling the love that only family can offer. I am looking forward to seeing this young man grow up and follow in his parents steps. I promis not to let Mike infuence him too much.

Mary and Martin- WOW!!!!!!! Yours took me my complete and utter suprise. Holy cow. We have been so blessed to have both of you in the family and I can not wait to meet the newest Downey. Mary, I too was not able to keep it quiet for the 3 months or even long enough to suprise my husband and that is what we love about you. I know that both you and martin will be excellent parents and that your baby will be loved and guided through this life in the best way. I also know that he or she will be fully versed in the marvel comics, wrestling and all things media. By the way, you know that our doorstep is always open for a little kid wanting to play video games. Please give martin a big hug for me!!!!!!!!

Kara and Ben- I am still tearing up. Just to let you know. Maybe it is just hormones or the fact that you and Angie were always there for me and I prayed that you would receive wonderful blessings in your lives. When I told Mike he said that he could not think of a better thing for you and ben. I know that you will be a great mom and Ben will be a great dad. I am just sad that I do not live close enough to you to help you through your morning sickness, laugh as you can no longer fit in the desk and come over and wash your dishes while you lose your plug. But you know I would!

To the friend that has yet to spill the news- You are already a mother and have a beautiful daughter (one that I would not mind my son dating if they were not kids) and you are also one of my very good friends. I am so happy about your news and can think of nothing that could have made this stormy day seem sunny. Mike (when I called) told me that when I told him about Kara that he had a feeling that you were pg too. You and your husband are wonderful people and I love that your family is growing. I will not add any personal things since you have yet to announce anything but know that if you need me I am there.


To all of them- We love each of you very much and please know that I could never express in words or on a blog the happiness and joy that I have that each of you are mothers. You have all been there for mike and I and even our kids and I hope that you each know that if you need anything, to talk, share pics, drive, support or anything that we would love to help. All of you live so far away and we miss you. Please keep us updated on your little ones.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Hair Bows- Pics added




So I have a daughter now, a three year old daughter and she loves to have her hair fixed up. I kept looking around for pretty bows to top off her ponytails and such but alas, I could not find any I liked or wanted to pay and arm for. Honestly, when you do come across bows they are way pricey and those that know me know that I am too cheap for that. I then noticed at the booths for the bows (consigment shops, sales, boutiques) that they had to have been made from someone and I am pretty crafty so I thought about it and decided to make my own. I got online and did some research and last night I spent about $7.oo and made 6 bows and still have stuff to make 7 more. It was really fun and now I can not wait to go and buy more ribbons and create such cute masterpieces to decorate my already beautiful princess hair. For real, they look great! I will post some pics when I have time. For anyone that would like to try making hair bows for nieces (Kara) or your own kids here is the website that I found most helpful.
http://www.girlythingsbows.com/

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

mondays

You have got to love them. My Monday yesterday was a little bipolar. It just could not decide what it was going to be but at least it ended on a good note.

I had one of those mornings that nothing went as planned and my checkbook took large hits. I woke up and while I was getting ready for work I was thinking about the fun time I had at the super saturday activity and then going to my nieces birthday party and then to fayetteville on sunday to visit our friends and how since I had such a rocking weekend my week would surely be the same, and then I left my room. The hall carpet was soaked because our indoor hot water heater has a leak. Yup! Well, I shook that off and went to wake up the boys. Upon opening the door I am smacked in the face by the most gag worthy smell and knew at once that I was going to be met with a mess. Link had poop coming out of the diaper and all over the place. I got the boys up and set Beau to getting ready for his 6:30 am bus. I then grabbed a walmart bag and took care of the poop monster. My good spirit was starting to drop. I then hear Beau fussing in the bathroom at his sister and he comes up and tells me that she had pooped in her pull up and when she woke up to go to the bathroom got it all over our bathroom. Nice mommy is quickly becoming something akin to the Hulk. After getting all the, well you know, cleaned up I send Beau out to wait for the bus. I stand at the door to watch and the bus flys right past him. My 8 year old then runs up to me and wants to know why his bus left him and didn't want to pick him up. So I then have to hunt down the transportation number and call to get the bus sent back to us. I decide to wait outside with him this time just to make sure nothing happens. When I get back in the house Princess found my chapstick and smeared it all over her head and Link broke our already broken screen door so I had to clean her up and fix the door. Oh I forgot that within all of our morning stuff our dogs kept breaking out of our back yard and I would have to chase them down and put them back in. Well, I finally get everyone dressed and we head out the door. Links bus is late and when I go to start the van to take princess to school it will not start. I am then late to work and had a busy day. What in the world is an optimistic girl like me to do with a randomly bad day like that?

The bipolar part of my day kicked in at about 5:04 when my hunky and incredibly empathetic husband pulls up to pick me up and gets out of the car to give me a kiss and tell me that my man would take care of the rest of the day for me. Really, Honestly, I have the best husband in the world. My kids were also there and just started telling about their day and making noises and laughing and I could feel that dark cloud being chased away by the love of my family. We also had a meeting with our adoption specialist and everything is still looking great and she was so happy with how the kids have grown and changed in the past 4 months. Great food and the return of some great shows finished off my night.

Really I guess I would rather have a bipolar day that ends like this one did than to have a depressing day that ends the way it begins. As long as I have Mike I doubt that will be the case.
Sorry for my vent but it really was hard yesterday morning but I handled it and even fell asleep rather easily last night. That is a plus for me.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Ipod Play list

So I have a playlist on my Ipod that I named "about to die"

This name was given for two reasons. The first one is that they are all songs that I want to hear one last time before the Ipod dies. The second one is for those times when I feel like emotionally, physically or mentally I am about to die. These songs will usually fit my mood somehow, allow me to sing along and forget the problem or live in the moment. I have listened to this list of songs two times through today and it is starting to work its magic.

In case you are wondering here is the list.

Makin Whoopie- Ella Fitzgerald
my man- Funny Girl
baby mine- Bette Midler
fever- Bette Midler
alright, Okay, You Win- Bette Midler
I'm a Woman- Bette Midler
He's a tramp- Bette Midler
lovefool- Cardigans
diamonds are a girls best friend- Marilyn Monroe
Goodbye to love- Carpenters
Kissing you- des'ree (romeo and Juliet)
Baby its cold outside- Ella Fitzgerald and Lois Armstrong
ev'ry time I say Goodbye- etta james
Claire De Lune
Lazy-Marilyn Monroe
pure Imagination (maroon 5)
And All that jazz- Chicago
How Lucky can you get- Funny Lady
All I ask Of you- Phantom
Let's do it, Lets fall in love- delovely
Your Song- Moulin Rouge
Elephant Medley- Moulin Rouge
Love you didn't do right by me- White Christmas
At Last- Etta James
Mr Cellophane- Chicago
Sonata #2 - Beethoven

What are your Go to songs that fit every mood, moment or situation? This are only a few of mine but when your Ipod is about to die you only have so much time!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Question of the worker ant

does the sun shine between the hours of 8-4:30 on the days of M-F? I am just curious. I have heard of such rumurs and I suppose it would be true that the sun shines the same amount of time everyday but I can not find the proof. I look out the glass wall of my office and only see a fax, a desk and the wall of the hallway. My office is on the interior part of a cement block building and the sun don't shine where my office is. I have a cactus that I water about once a month.....or every other month and it hasn't died yet so maybe the sun just shines after I get off work and I am not there to see it. This puzzles me. Maybe I can play a prank on one of the (gets paid way more than me) higher ups and highjack their office (all on the exterior of the building) and see if the sun truely does shine. Do you think that they would take my simple science experiment seriously or do you think security would be called..................I better not test that just yet. Who knows maybe one of these days I will see the sun and know that it does exist and shine when I am in my cement block but until that time I will just continue to dream of a land and time when sunlight filters softly into my office and brightens up my government beige walls and allows my cactus to be so happy that it joins me in one of my many outbursts of songs. Good times.....good times.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Last days of summer

I just realized that I did not blog about our little vacation. We did not leave central Arkansas but we still had a lot of fun. On Wednesday we went to see the wiggles live. It was so much fun to see the two little ones having so much fun. To be honest Mike and I kinda got into it too. Also, Anthony is pretty good looking up close. On Thursday we rode the trolley through the river market area and then the kids got to take part in a film shoot for a local childrens museum. That was really interesting. It was the whole shebang, you know.... Lights, camera and action.....type of stuff. The crew had nothing but great things to say about our kids and I don't blame them they really are great kids. On Friday we did a lot of hanging out at home but we did venture out to go and see Harry Potter. Beau LOVED it. He keeps talking about how he can not wait to get his letter to hogwarts when he turns ten. We then came home and went to the church pool party. On saturday we went and visited our friends Eddie and Aria and their new baby. He is such a cute one. As you can all see we had a fun time and I did take some pictures but have yet to put them in the computer. It was a great ending to a long summer and now the kids are going back to school. If I can get princess over this bug that has kept her from starting school this week. Have a great end of summer everyone.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Crabby mommy

So you know you are a little on the cranky side when your eight year old grabs the younger two and puts them in his room and tosses lindt truffles down the hallway at you and yells that he loves you.

Yup......I might have been a little cranky.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

9 years

9 years ago today I knelt across from the love of my life and pledged that I would spend eternity with him. I have since that moment been on the most incredible journey with that man. We have fostered or adopted or created 13 children and counting, we have earned 2.75 BA degrees, been really poor, we have moved 4 times, started our careers and continue to feel like teenagers when the other one enters the room. We have been together for almost 11 years and I have yet to think of a time even when I am red with anger that I have not loved him with my entire heart, mind and soul. He continues to treat me like his queen and makes me brownies anytime he thinks that I have had a bad day. I truely believe that the rest of eternity will be even better than the past nine years. He is the love of my life and he is also my best friend, without him my life would not be the same.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Life's Little Lessons

Isn't it funny how life sometimes teaches you little lessons? My life has been full of these little lessons and I have a funny feeling that they will continue to pop up in the most suprising way. Like this weekend for example. I learned some simple but valuable things and I am going to pass them along. The lessons I learned are threefold.

1. Girls days are always fun. This lesson has little lessons worked into it. First little lesson is that wedges are the fat girls best friend. That's right I said it. When you are a big girl you can not possibly be expected to hold all that weight on your toes and the wedge is a great alternate shoe to still make you look hot but not hurt. Oh, I baught new shoes this weekend. Next, I took princess to get her ears pearced. She wanted it done and I said ok. She picked them out and at first wanted some uber expensive ones until I showed her some cheaper ones that looked just like the others. The little lesson learned here......old women will flock around a little girl getting her ears pearced and when she does not cry or scream they will pronounce that child the most precious child in existance. At least until the next little girl gets in the hot seat. Over all my little girls day out rocked. We also got some new polish and did our toes too, well, mike did mine. Refer back to fat girl part. Now to wait until she is old enough to sit through a musical and the real training will begin.

2. Big lesson number two is that a mommy can never sleep in. NEVER! So, I have not been sleeping well since mikes little hospital stay and so mike was going to let me sleep in and relax all weekend. Great plan except for the 3 little and not so little children that seemed to not agree with his plan. I am laying in bed reading and Beau pops his head in the door and then flying leaps into the bed and starts to talk about some kind of video game. Next I hear lots of giggling at the foot of the bed. Our bed is really tall so I had to take a wild guess that it was the rest of the chobits. The giggling stops and I hear princess tell her big brother to put her on the bed too and then link makes faces at me until I have no choice but to allow him on the bed as well. Then the fun starts, My feet under the blankets moving seem to be a wonderful magic trick for the younger two and the older one starts to think that it is gymnastics time. Finally mike calls that breakfast is ready and they all abandon me. I guess I am only fun until food comes around.

3. Never let your husband dress your daughter for church when you have a meeting you have to go to before it begins. Thats right Mike shows up to church right before the opening song and I look at princess and notice that all of her clothes are on backwards. Yes backwards. I think OK this is fixable and then I look at her feet. She had two white dress shoes on and they both looked nice with the outfit but it was the fact that she was wearing two right shoes of different styles. yup. Two right shoes. No left shoe because that would just be too convitional for her. I start laughing and mike looks down and notices and says that he thought that they matched because they were white. LOL heaven help the girl if her daddy thinks that all white shoes match. Thats ok, last week he let her come in her pink plastic dress up high heel shoes. I guess you just have to accept it and hope that your laughing does not disturb the church goers around you.

These were my lessons this weekend and they all made me realize how blessed and happy I am. I have a wonderful family and I love my job and my church. What more can a girl ask for......except the diamond ear rings that her daughter wanted.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Stormy Summer Days


Usually a good stormy summer day makes me happy qlong with that lazy feeling that you give into that comes with the rain. It has become a tradition in our house that when it is rainy we all snuggle up eat grilled cheeses for dinner and watch movies. My favorite rainy shows are either disaster flicks or somthing suspensful or scary like "Are you afraid of the dark" from Snick. In fact tonight seems to be a good night for that show and some homemade popcorn. Not the microwaved stuff but you know, the kind you make in a big pot and get to hear it pop pop popping onto the lid and then when you open it up there is a sea of fresh popped kernals waiting to be salted, buttered and served up to a waiting family.


Normally just the thought of such a night makes my whole day fly by and cheers me up but today has been a little different. It started off by getting to work late and having to park in the back of the parking lot. Then I realized that I had no umbrella, only to then realize after stepping in an ankle deep puddle that my shoes are not water proof. Now I am sitting in my office cold and wet and wanting to be at home with my family. Well, now that I am typing this it seems rather funny and I am starting to get that excited feeling about what is to come. I wonder what it will be tonight disaster flick or scary? I know one thing for certain.........extra butter on the popcorn.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

summer update

Well, we are still busy but things are going great. We are two months down in our 6 month placement and have settled into a wonderful family of 5. Beau's baseball team are the 7-8 year old champs and after a visit to the ICU mike is finally getting over his leg infection. Oh, and I was also called as the Young Women's President. As you can see this is becoming a humdinger of a summer. What am I saying.......summer has somehow made it to the halfway point. Where did it go? What happened to all my plans of trips to local family fun and lots of backyard cookouts............what about the camping and the days of lounging in the backyard listening to the kids play while I am reading a cozy little book? I guess the answer is best laid plans and all that jazz. We have been able to do some fun things and I have read a few books but it just seems like time keeps slipping by. Sure, we had a good excuse of adding two kids to the family to first part of summer but I just wish we had more time. I guess other working moms feel the same way. I just hope it gets better over time. The good news is that fall is my favorite season and now it will be even more since our 6 month wait should end in November. Just before thanksgiving! That is going to make a wonderful thing to be thankful for. I hope everyones summer plans are falling into place. Until my next chance to breath, good bye.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

such a busy time

Where has the time gone? Our family has been together for 2 months now and it is also halfway to july!!!!! It seems like just a week ago that we were wearing jackets and complaining about how cold it was. Now, I am compaining about how hot and humid it is. Honestly, I thought me and the kids were going to die at Beau's game last night. At 9:00 pm it was still 90 + degrees outside. This is crazy and we still have jusly and august left. I so do not like summer. I am a fall girl all the way. Alright time to update (since I am too busy to post more frequently).

We are so happy. The past month the kids have lived with us has been wonderful. Even with princess coming down with the flu. It is so crazy how naturally we all fit in to the new family. It is as if they have been with us their whole lives. A truer testament to us knowing eachother before this life can not be found. All three of our kids had this crazy kind of instant bond that is hard to describe. I know with all my heart that all of my kids got together in heaven and said to each other " hey, you know those crazy taggards.....lets be their kids, they need all the help we can give them". (which is true...our kids keep us out of trouble) We are happy and the kids are happy. I am finally starting to feel like we are finding our missing children.

Beau turns eight this year! For those of you who are not LDS I will explain...... In our faith we believe that a person does not make the choice to be baptized or even need to be until they are at an age of accountabilty. An age that they are able to start understanding what is wrong and what is right. In our church that age is 8 or older. Mike and I decided a long time ago that we would let each of our kids approach us about baptism and not just expect it of them. We know that it is a sacred thing that must be entered into with a knowledge and desire to follow our savior. Derek came to us a few months ago and let us know that he wants to be baptized and we have been working with him to make sure that he is ready when the time comes. His baptism is going to be on July 18, 2009. We are all very happy and excited for him.

Oh, I forgot.....Mike also found out that he is diabetic. I hope this catches everyone up nice and up to date with our growing family.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

We have placement

Well, almost. Court went well yesterday. The Judge ruled with DHS and said that the Foster parents could not petition to prevent placement in our home or delay the adoption process. He did say that the two different Foster Parents can petition to adopt the children but that the opinion of DHS would weigh heavily in the case. So, that means that as of next monday the kids will be officially placed in our home and that starts our 6 month placement until adoption. They are in our home right now but it will not officially start until next monday. We are very happy and excited and we are thankful for all of the prayers, good thoughts and support that we have received from our friends and family. We went home and ate homemade pizza and had a great night celebrating with our family.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

4 simple words

Thats all it took to make my heart so full that it just might explode. What were these 4 simple words........I love you, mommy. These words are perfect for any mother but this was the first time I heard them from my princess. She then said that she loved her daddy and Beau too. She said it. She loves us. She also climbed into her bed and asked if she could sleep at our house.......and I had to say not tonight. All in due time. All in due time. For now my heart is full and happy and my soul longs for my children to be home with me forever. All in my Heavenly Father's time.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Happy Birthday to me!!!!!

I am another year older and closer to being an old lady. I will be 25 for about another 5 years and then I will go up to 35 and hold for ten more years and so fourth. This is so not cool. 29!!!!!!

So now that I am done with the pity party I will talk about how things are going for the Taggard Clan.

We are still doing daily visits with the kids and were supposed to have an overnight visit but the kids ended up getting sick so we will just have to see when it will be resceduled. The visits are going really well and the kids and Mike and I are really adjusting and bonding well. Now if we could just get them here permanently I would feel better.

My birthday weekend has been really fun. We went and watched wolverine on friday night and out to dinner afterwards and ate some yummy food. Then on saturday we went down to dig for diamonds and then got rained on. You know what though it was so much fun. No diamonds but two wonderful men that love me and spoil me rotten. Then we came home and I woke up this morning to pancakes in bed..... well, a plate of pancakes brought to me in bed. dNow I am waiting for my Mikey Steak to be grilled and to watch a disaster movie and call it a day. Hey, When you get to be my AGE you turn in and keep the rocking down to a minimum.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Second Visit





The Second visit went great. We finally got to meet our son! He is a very cheerful guy and is quickly falling into hero worship with his older brother. He followed Beau around and anything the big one did the little one would soon attempt. Princess also came along for the visit. She of course was dressed up and ready to play. We went to a park and got so caught up in pictures and playing that we almost missed dinner and meeting the case worker on time. My mom stopped by to visit the kids too since she was off work and close by. It felt great. All of the kids just seemed to bond so quickly. It helps that Beau is one of those kids that can make anyone feel good and peaceful and it has been a skill that has helped all of the foster kids we have had adjust faster and feel better. Within a few minutes he was making them smile and laugh by playing hide and seek and tickling them. He was very excited about meeting them. Link (little son- not real name) really surprised us. We were expecting a fussy baby and instead had a cheerful and very active kid. We spent two hours playing and have some great pics for everyone to see. We will be doing a visit everynight for the next two weeks and even have some weekend overnight visits. Again it is so hard sending these kids back to their houses when we know that they are our children but it will not be that way forever. Enjoy the pictures and I will keep you all updated.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009


We had our first visit with our daughter. Thats right our daughter. It is possible for a Taggard man to have a girl.....we just had to get ours little differently than most. I can not express in mere written word the emotions that are in my mind and heart right now. I was so nervouse before the visit and now I look back and wonder why. When I saw her I knew at once that she was mine. We went to the museum of discovery and played for about an hour and a half with her and it did not take very long for her to warm up to mommy and daddy. Mike of course had to test her belly for squishability and I realized that she would probably be a daddy's girl. So not fair! She was really shy at first but I have a funny feeling that given a little bit of time she will talk your ear off. I know that by the time she and mike dropped me off at work that she was talking up a storm about everything......she will fit in alright. After the museum we picked up some clown town and headed over to the park for a picinic and to feed the ducks. By this time she was laughing and smiling and getting on to daddy if he was not walking fast enough for her. When the ducks started flocking to us she said she was scared and to get the doggies away so mike scared them off ( I told ya'll she will have him wrapped in no time). We then went to take me to work and when I hugged her goodbye and got a kiss she said that she wanted to play with us again and that she would miss me. Mike said that she looked sad when he had to turn her back over to DHS and that he got a hug too. I can not wait until next week and seeing her win over Beau with those big brown eyes. Hopefully we will get to meet her brother next week too. He was sick today so we missed our visit with him.

Monday, April 6, 2009

guess what?

We were chosen as an adoptive family for a young sibling group of 2. That's right. After 7 years of trying to expand our tiny family of three it looks like we are about to get our wish. We have known for a little bit now but have been a little nervous....worried that it might fall through but last week we met the caseworkers, foster parents and lawyers and it seems like it is a go. We have been fostering now for over 2 years and will still foster but have been praying for our eternal and forever family to find us. It was kind of a shock for us. We almost gave up after a close call this past holiday season but Mike kept on me and I said ok lets keep trying. Not too long after that we were moving in the fast lane and was shocked when we were actually chosen out of the other families to have these kids. Us!!!!! The Taggards!!!! The ones that seem to have all the rotten luck! I just cried and Mike laughed like a crazy bandit. It was a little scary actually like he sounded a bit like the joker. No Kidding. Since that moment we have been going to meetings, reading and filling out paperwork, getting more training and just running on go. This past week our current foster kids were placed in a new home and it was a reality hit......we are closer to meeting our kids. I have had about 3 kids less time to think about it this past weekend and I am a little freaked out but in that great way. The way that you get when are getting ready for your first day as a freshmen or the day of your wedding.....you know something great is happening but you know that your life will never be the same. So with that our family is (hopefully) going permanently from 3 to 5. We are supposed to meet the kids within the next two weeks and you know I am going to get some pics and have fun. Continue to pray and think good thoughts for us and I will keep you updated.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Romance in the eyes of a 7 year old

My son Beau is almost 8 years old and in the past week or so has decided that girls are yucky and all that jazz. Any Rom-com or girly movie I try and watch is greeted with yucks and gagging noises along with any kissing that he catches Mike and I sneaking in. Mike thinks that this is hilarious but I just know that it puts us one more step closer to that day when he no longer thinks that girls have cooties. Well, anyways here is a funny little moment from my day.

Mike being the ever romantic man that he is gave me a brown soda and started "Mama Mia" for me to watch while I work on my quilt. About half way through the movie Beau climbs up behind me and starts to rub my back and start talking to his dad. I look up and notice that the love of my life is gazing at me with that goofy "boy meets girl" grin and we start to loose ourselves in the gaze when a little voice asks "Dad, why are you looking at mom like that?" Mike just starts to laugh and I tell him that it is because his daddy loves me and that one day he will be looking at a girl like that and I will ask him why he is looking at her that way and he will tell me that it is because he loves her and wants to make her his wife. (I was pretty impressed with this comeback and thought to myself that it would be one of those moments he would recall at his wedding reception in a speech about how much his mom rocks but no....) To that Beau replied "mom your so silly" and the moment was gone.

Beau does gag a lot at mike and I but I can not help it, he is the man of my soul, heart and eternal happiness. We do gaze at each other over the kids playing, steal kisses behind corners, giggle at silly inside jokes and use winks as a way of kissing in a crowded room. Beau does not know it yet but one day I know that he will look at a girl the way Mike looks at me and that girl is going to know that she is his and only his. And then it will be my time to gag.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

HOLY COW!!!!

Great Scott and great goodigilly moogilly!!!!!!!

What kind of world do we live in that a simple prescription after insurance is $70.00 for 15 pills. Does it really cost that much to make the pill? Will it cure the world of all it problems? Will it stimulate this economy? No, No and great heavens NO!

The medical situuation of this country is insane. I am not talking about the Doctors I am talking about the fact that medicine is ridonkulously high and so is health care. Most people in this country do not even have insurance. Nothing is affordable! Sorry you are dying please pick out a nice ozone friendly Funeral plan before you kick it! As you can all tell I am a little miffed at the idea that a tiny little pill can cost so much. I am afraid to take the things! what if they imbed themselves in the lining of my stomach and start producing little quarters since they are obviously made of diamonds and gold. Wait.......hmmmmmm......That might work! It might hurt but it might just work. Never mind I just discovered the way to pay for all my meds and medical care!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Oh, how I love thee let me count the ways

So I meant to write this post on saturday but well, one homestudy and four kids later......you get the point. This post is dedicated to the man I love and hopefully will not sound like a country western song, no rhonda, mike!!!

I was blessed to meet a crazy and slightly rough neck man 10 years ago. We met at church, I was looking for the bathroom and this good looking guy asked if I was looking for the bathroom and I was not about to let him know I had to pee so I said no. That good looking guy was Michael. We were in young single adults in church together and did not really see eye to eye but some how there was a spark. We started to date and he proposed to me 2 months later. That is where our journey began. So now I will tell the world what I love about my husband. The reason for doing this is because I am not a touchy or emotional person and do not very often tell him why he is so wonderful. So here I go.

1. My husband spoils me rotten....I have to be careful about what I say I would like because knowing him it will happen or be given to me. he also comes and eats with me once a week at work for lunch dates.

2. Michael is a great father and I could not have asked for a better partner in raising our children.

3. He is the Romantic I wish I was. He is the guy in the movies that remembers everything and sweeps the girl off her feet. Just to give you an example he winks at me when we are around other people and those are the private kisses that we share in our minds. Others might think that we have dust in our eyes or twitches.

4. He always know what I am talking about when even I have no clue.

5. He does not mind that I am a little Femi-nazi and he even lets me think that I am more independent than I really am.

6. He is a great and skillful lover (very important)

7. He learned to like and eat veggies for me

8. He makes my spine tingle and my face blush just by entering a room and looking at me. (sometimes I even giggle like a little girl)

9. No matter how ugly I feel he makes me believe that I am the hottest thing on earth. (except for that one time I had the flu in 98 and he said I looked rough)

10. I will have him for eternity and he fills in the missing parts of my soul

That's the end. I condensed the list because I am sure you do not want all the details of why he is the best husband in the world but these are my favorites. By the way for valentines day he had flowers delivered on thursday, chocolate covered strawberries on friday and then took off a day of work on monday so that we had a day without kids to be together. It was nice.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I am a disney princess....or so I think.


Belle has always been my favorite Disney princess........Why? Because she and I have a lot in common. No, not the beautiful looks and magical creatures part but in other ways.

Ways that Desilu is like Belle

1. I love books, I could be found at a wee age reading by flashlight at night...come to think of it you can still find me reading by flashlight at night. or anywhere for that matter. Getting lost in the worlds that are on the written page is one of my life long past times.

2. I have a beastly yet hunky man in my life. My husband mike is my prince. Just like bell had to tame the beast and get him to realize life was better her way, I too have had to do that. OK, so I am still working on the taming part. But he is a hairy, loving, and spoils me rotten type of guy.

3. Believes in happy endings. Yes that is me. I love that the girl and the boy get together and I am a pretty upbeat and optimistic person. Unless it is a good disaster flick and then I like for all the people to die. (muahahahahaha) or sims....they can die too.

4. Bursts into song. So, yeah. I do this. Even when I was a kid I would pretend that life was a musical and create little songs (and dances) in my head to fit what ever situation was at hand. Sometimes I get so carried away that the songs burst out of me and everyone else can hear the music too. Sorry to those of you that work with me. I will keep it down.

5. Cast of crazy characters. That's right. Anyone who has the kids I have or has the extended family I have has unlimited free entertainment. Sometimes I think my life would make a kick butt sitcom. Other times a tragic drama. But mostly the sitcom.

Ways that I am not like Belle

1. I do not speak french. I took french in high school but would then day dream, read or see number 4 above. Lucky for me I never burst into song in there. Well maybe a little.....

2. I would never have put up with Gaston I would have taken his gun and shot his....well you know.....off a long time ago.

3. I do not have magical objects at my beck and call to dress, feed and help me. I wish I did and sometimes try and get my kids to do stuff for me but alas, this has always failed. So until I get an enchanted tea set, clock or candle stick I am SOL on the lazy days attitude.

4. I am not a dancer. I stink at it and would not prance around a big old ball room with a teapot singing for the world to see. They would laugh and it would ruin the moment. I would totally rock that yellow dress though. Eat your heart out, belle.

5. You will also not find me running through a forest and fighting hungry wolves. If you know then you know that I freak out at the sign of rabid animals.


So in a nut shell Belle is the Disney princess I associate my life too. Oh and Mulan.....Hello that girl could for real kick some booty. But with my big hips and other things I could never pass for a boy. NEVER!!!!!! By the way if you like the Beauty and the Beast story check out Beauty by Robin McKinney. One of my Favorite books.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

An Instant Message from my 7 year old

So I was working and getting rather frustrated that the day was not ending when I got an instant message from Beau....Here is out conversation for you. The boy can not type or spell to save his life and I had to keep copying and Pasting into word and changing the font and then looking to see what letter he might have ment to hit to get the real word...oh, and he comes by the spelling thing naturally.

PS mike change your font. Oh, and Mike on this is Beau he is using my husbands Log on.

desiree says: did you eat the cookies

Mike says: what oune minit Wait one Minute

Mike says: not yet

desiree says: ok

Mike says: is it ok iv I do my parucraf onlin Is it ok if I write my Paragraph online

desiree says: yes

Mike says: ok

desiree says: are you wanting to type it on here for me

Mike says: yes

Mike says: Math lab

desiree says: ok

Mike says: Today I went to math lab.

Mike says: It whus fun at math lab Was fun

Mike says: we Lernd about geumetrik shaps We learned about geometric shapes

desiree says: Geomeric

desiree says: Geometric (see I told you he comes by it natrually)

desiree says:Keep writing love

Mike says: then we leard about flip,slid and turn

Mike says: I hope sins lab is just as fun I hope science lab is just as fun

Mike says: the end

desiree says:very good paragraph

desiree says: did your teacher like your costume

Mike says: duckwusieatingstuf frum your paint baskit Dike (dog) was eating stuff from your paint basket

desiree says: did you get him out. It might be that cookie you dropped in there last night

Mike says: yes she seid Yes she did ( boy dog)

Mike says: it wus cute

desiree says: very funny b

Mike says: no he tuck ordumints frum it He took some ornaments from it

desiree says: wow

Mike says: he did

Mike says: i put it up

desiree says: Thank you

Mike says:your welcum

desiree says: B- I just want to tell you that you are one amazing young man and I can not wait until I can give you a hug

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Have you ever thought.......

1. That you could Fly
2. That you could do a huge gymnastics thing down the halyway at work
3. That you were ment to be rich but something happened
4. That everyone but you was a robot
5. That you could correct all the worlds problems if handed the power and no questions asked
6. That it would be funny to see a monkey running through the office
7. That your kid was the funniest thing in the world
8. That ants are our to kill us all
9. That life would be better if it was a musical. For real folks it would be. Imagine mike doing the west side story snap.
10. That life would not be quite as great without your family, friends and faith.

..............Me too. I still believe in number 4 by the way.

Monday, January 26, 2009

I'm a lumberjack and I'm OK!

No, Really I am!!!!! Ok, more like Mike is but I make a good apprintece Lumberjack.

So here is the story. Be Prepared it is full of romance, adventure, fear, excitement, heroes and more. If you think you can take it read on but if your heart is weak then stop here and just read the spoiler. Spoiler: Highlight to read: We Chopped down a tree. . Ok for the others, read on.

It all started on a bright saturday morning. Around 10 am to be exact. Knowing that my husband was planning to chop down the two bradford pear trees in the front yard at the end of the month, I suggested that he and I do it this weekend. What! Craziness you say??? It was, and I am paying for that decision to this day. Mike asked me if I was sure and I thought about it and said lets do it, how hard can it be. Wow, was that stupid to say. So anyways, We get outside and mike starts up the chain saw and starts hacking away at the tree. What was my job. I got to pull the rope to get the limbs to fall in the direction the we wanted. Then mike would cut the limbs into carry size pieces and I got to pick them up and carry them off. I lost count of the number of dead lifts I did but my hamstrings have not. Oh, did I mention that the reson we needed to chop them down is because I am highly allergic to them. Everytime they bllom I get welps and have problems breathing. While carrying the limbs I noticed that the tree had started budding. CRAP!!!!! That would explain the swollen eyes and itchy skin.

Finally we got to the trunk and a few larger limbs. Mike said that it would be fine to go ahead and take it down....Lesson to me, Get a second opinion. I tell mike about the episode of Toughest jobs where they chopped down trees and explain to him the correct way to chop it down.....Lesson to me, Shut your trap. I get a rope and start pulling on it to get the tree to not fall on the neighbors house and mike starts cutting. Holy Moly I notice that the tree is pulling me, now I am a big girl so this is kinda scary. I start yelling mikes name but do to the chainsaw he fails to hear me. The tree starts heading towards the neighbors house. I am leaned all the way back on the rope just praying and then Mike notices whats up and, True story, he drops the saw and puts his hands on the tree and starts pushing it in the opposite direction. He actually pushed a 20 or so foot tree away from the houses and got it to land where it needed too!!!!!! I just stood there staring at this hero of a man and could not help but thank all those years of comic book reading he did. A normal man that did not believe in super hero powers would have watched the tree take out a roof but not my man. He grabbed that tree and said " I will not let you win" and pushed down. He really is a strong guy. So anyways, we limb it up and I haul it to the road and then we decide to try and chop down the second one.

Have you ever been in the middle of doing something and realize that you got in over your head. Well, as mike and I were fighting with a huge like 15 foot long 12" thick branch that wanted to take out our bedroom I had that moment. I thought that we were going to ruin the house and maybe get killed in the process. I know mike won't say it but I think that he got a little worried as we were wrestling that thing from our house. We fought the branch and tried various different approches until finally we decided to combine our weight (not so light) and pull the sucker down together. We worked and pulled and I might have cried a bit but we got it down and the crash could be heard for miles.....well it did wake the napping kids. We saved our house and I called it quits. Mike did not like this but just like the Hero he is he accepted my plea and we called it a day and went to the movies.

I am sore, He is sore and the world is great. I am one and a half less trees less in my allergy filled world and My husband has dug himself deeper in my heart and soul. I will never forget seeing him holding that tree and pushing it over and I learned that a spoiled city girl can chop down a tree.....with a little help from her lumberjack lover.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Late night Ponderings

Alright, I do not have any one topic that is on my mind but I do have lots of little ones that I think about in the wee morning hours when I should be asleep. So now, Out of desperation for a little shut eye, I am going to talk about them.

The New President: I am quite optimistic about him. I do not think that he will be able to make Rainbows appear and angels sing everytime he snaps his fingers like some people do but I do think that he is going to work hard and I hope that he will be able to work across party lines and compromise in order for us to get back on track. His speach was really good too.

The economy: Hmmmmmmmm...... So I think about this one a lot in the wee hours of darkness and I am still a bit scared. I had an economics class a couple (6 years ago!!!!) that said that we were due for a world recession and economic crisis within 10 years and I guess she was right. I do not think that this will be short term but that it will take a long time for us to overcome this downfall. I was watching Kit Kidrige (Kids Movie: really good) with the family last weekend and it is about a girl and her adventures during the great depression and it was a little scary how closely it resembled today. The movie opens with a bunch of houses foreclosing and then People being laid off and so on. That is what we are going through right now and I am afraid that if we are not careful it could get as bad as it did back then. Mike and I are glad that we have food storage and things like that to help us if he gets laid off but that only lasts so long. If anything being butt broke is helping us become more aware of how we spend our money.

Beau Growing up: So I noticed B starting to work a little harder on his appearance. Brushing his hair and teeth without me asking, trying (not succeding) to match his clothes, hour long hot showers, making his dad buy him some Axe spray deoderant and wanting to use gel in his hair. Wow! Where is that little boy that ran around naked in our house because underwear made his junk crowded and did not want to take a bath because it would take away from play time. When i asked if he was doing this for a girl he said no. I then said...You know its OK to like girls and he did the cool guy finger gun point thing, winked and said I do like a girl and its you. So, for now my place in his heart is safe but I have this sinking feeling that it is slipping very quickly.

Gardening: I think we are going to try Grapes. B has been trying to grow grapes from grapes (seedless) for about 5 years and now that we are settled in our new house I think we will plant some for him. I am also going to take advantage of the yard space and being allowed to till it up and plant a reall garden this year too. Not just one in pots. I think that this will also help with paying for food. If we can get our veggies from our own dirt and not from walmart it will help us save a pretty penny or too. Who am I lying to it will be more than a penny. Well, Lets see if we can get the yard cleared up enough to plant. I hope so. We need to try this out.

Organizing: I can't help but think that there might be a better way of organizing things. This is something I love. But it bothers me to know that I might be missing out on a bigger and better way of color coding and indexing my life. This really does keep me up. Could there be another way to put my life in order? I will never know but I will continue to ponder this.

Thanks for hanging out and letting me get some thoughts out of my head. Those of you who know me also know that this will not keep me from staying up all night thinking about them but it never hurts to try.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

"I'm a Woman" by Peggy Lee

W-O-M-A-N!!!!!

I decided that I would write a little about me for facebook today and while I was doing it I was listening to my Ipod and a song by Peggy Lee came on. The Song was "I'm a Woman". As I started dancing and singing along......yes, at my desk......I realized that there are so many days I feel like that song. So that is what I put down about me. That I am that song. I am on hard working, loving and awesome woman. W-O-M-A-N! I think that most woman fit in this category. We are not the old fashioned version of the 50's mom. I don't know about you but my grandma's didn't even fit in that. They were hard working, get it done and get it done right type women. All the women in my family, and my husbands, are like that we get it done no matter what it takes. Women today no matter if you work or stay home are expected to do so much and it is because we can and we will. We work, we are moms, we are wives, sisters, daughters, teachers.....fill in the blanks. We do so much and too many of us (me included) fail to see that. We are so obsessed with our faults and things that we mess up on that we forget to say..."dang I am on kick butt lady" or if you are classier than that..." wow, I am doing a swell job". Ladies, we need to remember that we are great and wonderful women and that what we do is amazing and what we fail at can not diminish that in even the slightest bit. I challenge all the women I know to recognize how great you are and take a minute to think about all the things that you do and what great things you have accomplished. I never do that but dang it (not classy) I need to start.

Words to the song for those of you who listen to music from this century.

I can wash out 44 pairs of socks and have 'em hangin out on the line
I can starch & iron 2 dozens shirts 'fore you can count from 1 to 9
I can scoop up a great big dipper full of lard from the drippins can
Throw it in the skillet, go out & do my shopping, be back before it melts in the pan'
Cause I'm a woman! W-O-M-A-N, I'll say it again
I can rub & scrub this old house til it's shinin like a dime
Feed the baby, grease the car, & powder my face at the same time
Get all dressed up, go out and swing til 4 a.m. and then
Lay down at 5, jump up at 6, and start all over again
'Cause I'm a woman! W-O-M-A-N, I'll say it again
If you come to me sickly you know I'm gonna make you well
If you come to me all hexed up you know I'm gonna break the spell
If you come to me hungry you know I'm gonna fill you full of grits
If it's lovin you're likin, I'll kiss you and give you the shiverin' fits
'Cause I'm a woman! W-O-M-A-N, I'll say it again
I can stretch! a green black dollar bill from here to kindom come!
I can play the numbers pay the bills and still end up with some!
I got a twenty-dollar gold piece says there ain't nothing I can't do
I can make a dress out of a feed bag and I can make a man out of you
'Cause I'm a woman! W-O-M-A-N, I'll say it again 'Cause I'm a woman! W-O-M-A-N, and that's all.

On a side note my husband Mike could very well fit this song too. as well as the rowe men and taggard men, the women in both of my families have been blessed with great and wonderful men that support and work side by side with their women. Michael, I want to say thank you for helping me see myself as a talented, smart, sexy woman and letting me know that you will always be their to catch me when I stumble. I love you.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Trying again

As you know we are a foster family. We have been taking care of and loving foster children for two years now. What some might not know is that we have been trying to adopt for 4 years. Thats right, four long years. Due to lots of different things (probably signs from you know who that we needed to wait) we have yet to add permanently to our family. After some frustrated feelings and some long talks Mike and I decided to get back on the boat and starte paddling to our eternal family. I guess we will take Beau for a ride too. We met with the adoption side of DHS yesterday and talked with them about our needs and options. It went really well and Mike and I both have a good feeling about it this time around. Hopefully that means that it is time for us to start adding on and no more complications will come up.....but then again, you never know.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Late Night Dates

So, I think I just invented a new tradition with my son. I could not get to sleep Monday night and I felt bad because Beau had asked for Hot chocolate earlier in the night and I said no because I was busy and frustrated and tired. I thought to myself it would be fun to sneak out of bed and have a hot chocolate date with one of my favorite guys. Well, that did it, I got out of bed and creeped into B's room and got him out of bed and we giggled our way into the kitchen and made ourselves some hot chocolate. We then sat down at the table and chit chatted about important things, like him stealing the Book of Mormon to read ahead of the family at night, or how he needs to be more sensitive about girls liking him and how my job is going. It was fun and after we got done talking and the mugs were empty Beau wanted to clean the mugs so that Mike would not know that we got out of bed (he knew already) but I said no it would be fine because daddy is not quite observant enough to catch on. We then creeped back into our beds. Beau asked me last night when he could expect to be woken up for our date again and he told me that it was fun and my heart earned a very rare and perfect gold star that day. I told him that it would be a surprise and he would not know when to expect it but we would do it again. I love sons, daughters just become daddy's girls but son's always stay with momma!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Hmmmm...........I've been thinking.

So over the holidays we stayed with J&A down in arkadelphia and had a lot of fun. Well, while we were there it was brought up that Mike and I will be 39 when our son turns 18 and graduates from school. I knew that we would be young but I had not really thought about it before. It will be nice. We did not get much time after we were married (11 months) to be a married couple before POP here's your baby. Since then it has been rush here, change that, graduate from there and all that madness. Now that I think about it I think that it will be nice to have most of my older adulthood to myself with mike. We can go on a mission, travel and have fun. Providing that we keep saving and plan for our future of course. Still, it might be nice.

Then I got to thinking...Holy Crap, I only have 11 more years before my son is a man. I hope that the years slow down and stop racing by us. It seems like just a few yers ago that we brought home a jello baby and now that baby is teaching me how to play chess. When did he get that big or smart? When did he develop his personality and the things that make him....Beau. It is amazing. Now I just have to make sure that I pay attenion and enjoy each moment until I kick him out in 11 years to start my old lady life.

It is just crazy how our lives are sectioned off and how we change throughout them, childhood, teens, college years, young married couple (combined with college years for us) kids, empty nest, golden years. I always enjoy what ever time I am in and look forward to the next. I am still getting over the fact that in less than 2 years I will be 30. thats right a full grown middle aged grown up.

I warned you in the subject, I've been thinking and my friends know that my thoughts are often random and un organized just like this post. I'm just sayin, it has been interesting looking backwards and forwards in my life. So, now it is your turn to sit down and think about where you have been and where you are going.